library!

well, i have finally found the weber state library, folks. it aint bad, but it's definitely not the merrill-cazier library at usu. i sat down at this computer and the first thing i saw was this:

where am i?! i thought. who looks up porn at a university library where everyone can see? i guess i don't know about other schools, but we didn't have those signs at utah state. i feel like not looking at pornography at school is kind of just an assumed rule, but i dunno, i guess i could be wrong...

i'm thinking of the days at the utah state library. if i really wanted to get anything done, i would go sit on the third floor next to the plants and the big windows that overlook campus, get in the zone, and crank out my studying or assignments or whatever it was that i was working on.

but more often than that, i would go to the first floor. the roommates and our friends had our usual chairs and table we would post up at and gossip, people watch, look at boys, and occassionally, do a little bit of schoolwork. for those of you who haven't been to utah state, the first floor of the library is a meat market. i may even go as far as to say more so than the fieldhouse (gym). i met so many guys at the library, it really was just the hot spot to be.

yeah well, i'm definitely lacking on the "hot guy" asset in this library. not that i haven't seen a few, but...well i haven't. [although i must make the announcement that contrary to popular belief, attractive guys do go to weber. i see some every day! this definitely came as a surprise to me the first week and a half of being here, because everyone made it sound like meeting guys would be impossible and hopeless here.]

an asset i'm missing right now even more so than the pretty-faced male scholars, is my roommates from last year. i miss walking into the library and almost always having one or two of my girls sitting at our table and immediately walking over, sitting down, and telling them a story that only they would apprecciate and laugh at. we'd sit and half-talk, half-study, half-people watch for a little while and then would go to leave asking the other(s): when will you be home? and then make tentative plans for what we'd do with the rest of our evening. i miss home being snow hall, and more specifically, room 206, with my five favorite girls in the whole entire world.

i miss having someone to walk through campus with.

i've been thinking about how i become so comfortable with people and become such good friends with them, and how things then change and i'm not able to see them as often. i've come to the conclusion that sometimes best friends need to be separated because that leaves some space for them to play an important role in someone else's life, or for someone else to play an important role in their life. it's like when one door closes another door opens type of thing. if i had it my way, i would have never had to be separated from my high school friends and then i never would have made my utah state friends. and then if i never had been separated from my utah state friends, i would have never become friends with the people i've recently become such great friends with. and that would be sad, i can't imagine things being any other way right now.

i also truly believe that once you've become good friends with certain people, they will always be close to your heart, no matter how far away they are or how much times goes by without seeing them. once you've had an extremely close relationship with somebody, no one else can really replace that. but things do change and their role in your life might shift a little so that there's room for someone else.

the right people will always come into your life at the right time.
i know i haven't said that a thousand times on my blog or anything...

hey roomies, i miss you girls. have an incredible semester though! i'm so proud of you girls and everything you're doing with your lives, i can't wait til i next see you and we can catch up on all the adventures that life is constantly throwing our way.

i've been sitting at this computer and before i started writing this i was laughing (not so) silently at allie's blog, and then at kid history, and i was getting some dirty looks from a couple people. and i didn't really care. it reminded me of this guy at utah state's library:

he was playing WOW or LOL or some sort of game like that, in the middle of the library, on the first floor, on a big screen, where everyone could see. and he didn't care at all. seriously i look up to this kid. good for him.

peace people.
-kandi